Praying in the corner

I’m on my knees

Sweaty palms glued together like superglue

Sweat streaming down my face

Silent tears streaming

I turn around.

The classroom hissing sniggers like venomous snakes

Stinging my humiliated rage

Girls behind me laughing

Like poisonous pollen

From rotten flowers

Never been watered

I cannot escape

Cannot run

 

I’m praying in the corner

At night

The sky is pitch black

Like I’m going blind overnight

No bright moon

To guide me

Like a shinning bright light

Only the darkness

From my own sadness

I’m on my knees

On the cold painful floor

The walls are dark

With no bright colours

To make a canvas smile

Just a plain canvas

Tortured by darkness

 

I’m praying in the corner

On my knees

Pins and needles

Is what I’m feeling

No real tears

Just silent ones

Lip gloss rubs

Ignites an invisible flame

Face burning with humiliation

“Fight back” classroom goads

In my mind

I’m animal

Wanting to lash out

But frozen by traumatic tears

Only to be the freak in the freak show

I’m praying in the corner